genrally life in general

i am in a state of extreme self criticism and self doubt-borderline depression. well depression is a bit strong, this plaster is just restricting me, holding back my enthusiasm for life. its getting loose aswell which has placed a seed of doubt in my mind, my leg is pressing at the front which is a problem, apparently. ill get it sorted on monday. i want to show my friends i love them but i cant, i feel our relationships are becoming damaged by my constant down-heartedness. the primary reason for feeling this way is the leg concern, if that wasnt an issue there would be no other issues. if that isnt good syntax i dont know what is